P90X just does not work in my current space… I really gave it a good try and I wish I could go through with it. SO I am currently developing a new fitness plan that will inevitably have to include a gym. I really hate having to rely on going to a gym but I think this whole process has really motivated me to start SOMETHING.
Changing my diet starts today. I was doing great for like two days, I thought I would ease into the whole P90X diet and then I kinda gave in… or a lot gave in… to the tune of about 3 pounds!! I am now 193.5 lbs as of this morning. I think today it hit me that I am seriously just a couple of pounds away from 200 pounds! And coming from someone that always thought of themselves as in shape and at times too skinny; this is crazy. Saying I gained 20 pounds in college is one thing; but saying you gained 40 pounds; that’s a whole other story! It scary to think how fast I gained nearly 4 pounds just by letting myself go for not even two weeks. I think what got me going was that last night I actually ripped a pair of boxers carrying some stuff!! No joke!! It’s scary that they were a size medium and that I desperately need size large in just about everything, and that there are size smalls hanging around in my closet that I wore not too long ago. At this point, everything is too tight!
I have basically just pigged out over the last week thinking I was gonna make a fresh start the next day; a horrible cycle. I have never had to eat healthy before and this is going to involve getting rid of a lot of bad habits. And I will be joining a gym this weekend; for my underwear’s sake.